I feel disgusting, in fact.

But not in a usual, boring, whiny way that I usually feel. More of a complete disgust in myself that makes me want to throw up, disappear, turn into smoke and dissipate. The lovehandles make me feel like I was raped by fat over and over again. litterally RAPED. That’s what’s weird about how I feel, and why it feels different.
Today sucks.